Leviticus 26:19 (NIV)
19 I will break down your stubborn pride and make the sky above you like iron and the ground beneath you like bronze.
I love the definitive word of God – I WILL BREAK YOU!!!!!!!!!! Helloooooooooo? Anyone home? He tells us – I will break you. I truly resemble the stubborn pride comment. I don’t know anyone who isn’t unless they are, to coin a phrase I learned while working for the railroad, “beaten into compliance”. I wonder if there aren’t two types of people out there – stubborn and willful or those that have had it whipped out of them by those that are. A very sad state of affairs either way. Having my self-will broken by God is a good thing because it brings me away from my selfish ways and moves me closer to being a servant.
Psalm 121 (NIV)
1 I lift up my eyes to the mountains— where does my help come from? 2 My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.
I lift my eyes up though, through the errors of my ways, to my Lord, the creator, the shaker, maker and baker of all of this – everything. Including the free will pony that I ride away from Him on. So I pray to be broken further so that I lean on God more, so that I can be helped by the amazing God we have.
Matthew 23:11-12 (NIV)
11 The greatest among you will be your servant. 12 For those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.
I need to be humbled to be a servant. I can’t be a servant while arrogantly holding on to my self defined greatness (choke). Too often I think I’m hot poop on a silver platter when really I’m cold diarrhea in a Dixie cup. I’m broken first and foremost, not worthy of His love, yet loved by Him in the most extreme ways, the most radical ways, the most amazing ways. I am not alone.
Mark 11:20-33 (NIV)
33 “And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.”
Dontchaknow (from a regional Wisconsin dialect) that what we do matters? If we live in our resentments, we are like the servant who had his debts forgiven but refused to forgive the debts of someone who owed him. We’ve been forgiven of much, we need to forgive as well. Forgiving is hard, it’s painful, it’s frustrating, it’s insane sometimes. But, God has forgiven us for murdering His Son, right? Does it get worse than that? We killed Him, yet He forgives us and then blesses us. Why then, do we not find it in our hearts to forgive others? How about the toughest thing to forgive – forgiving ourselves for the things we’ve done?
Broken, healed correctly, built to serve out of a deep, forgiving love we’ve been blessed with. Amazing. Grace.
I’m not one for loud proclamations, but for this one I gotta shout out “Thank you Jesus!”.